Monday, November 24, 2003

Life is a PAIN in the @$$!!

Wow, have not really updated this thing in a while. Well, I did, but it didn't show up for some reason. *sighs* oh well! It has been the two weeks (or so) from hell. I really have to fix my schedule for next quarter so that I'm not so tired all the time and I have time set aside to study and sleep. Because this job of mine is really taking it out of me. BIG time.

Still have to work on ENV M111 paper, and now, the final pic 10 project, which I'm going to nail. (I think I fucked up the last one...) Dammmnnnnn. It's either I fix my schedule, or it's going to be light on the sailing---only two days a week, I think. I just don't have time for anything else. ARRRRRG.

What a shambles my life is. I feel like I'm grasping at air straws. Crap, they go away so quick and you can't get them back! My sanity is not liking that much. That, and today is Aunt Shirley's memorial service. And I can't go. Because I'm STUCK IN FREAKIN' LA!!!

That, and mom says I should try to get a ride down to long beach on wednesday... with somebody, because she can't really pick me up. ARRRRG again! I guess I'll ask Brooke what she's doing about that. Maybe she could give me a ride if she's going home?? Shall ask!

Am very boring. Oh well. Too bad. So Sad.

Oooh! Got to watch funny Japanese program! "First Kiss" ha ha ha, the funniest EVER. Aww, the end was so KAWAIII!!! Iria-kun's mom yelled at him that kotoko was only trying to melt his heart of ice, was always being nice to him and loving him, and all he did was be like a wall to her... and then he ignored his mom and rushed upstairs...where he underwent (HA! serves him right!) mental torment, causing him to realize his feelings for kotoko and rush after her....he thought he missed her on the train and screams out her name (awww) but she didn't get on because she thought she heard him calling her.... "Mou, don't leave me anymore..." EEEEEEEEEEEE! *dances around* so KAWAIIII-NEH!?! Shuttup, I can hear you snickering at me. *snickers in background* I said it's CUTE, Allright?!?! Humpf! It makes ME happy, at least. And there doesn't seem to be much that does that, nowadays.

Blarg, blarg. Want to go HOME!

Monday, November 10, 2003

Oh, the TRAUMA!

Wierd, wierd wierd. Roomie has sexiled me to emily and sarah's room, where I'm writing this on sarah's computer. Now I'm scared to go back. ACK! Could she have warned me or something so I wouldn't have come back? *whimpers and curls into fetal position* AGGG. Traumatized. I went to walk to meeting, got to the house, and it was mostly over (it being senior ditch dinner) so I got a ride back from the lovely brook and melanie. Went back to room, and, um. yeah.

No rock climbing tomorrow. WAH. But, on the up side, I have 25 more bucks than I thought I would...YOGA PANTS, here I come! Oh, and I get to sleep in, since there's no class tomorrow. It being veteran's day. So thank a vet, goddamn it!! I think I'll work on my env. M111 paper. Another happy thought: got my pictures back today, and they turned out SO cute! I put a couple in my stolen "follow your heart to aephi" frames...so cute! Sad that the REALLY cute one of me and julie is with her eyes shut. darnnnn! I'm still putting it up though, since it's so nice. Hubba hubba, we look hot! And pics of haloween with me and roomie are darn cute too.

Was totally pmsing last week. Which is no doubt why I had no patience for anything with a dick and a mouth last week. So, poor kiron and akhi had to bear the brunt of evil. Poor guys. I feel kinda bad for them. Ah well, life continues. I'm a girl, right? I have the right to reserve bitchiness to members of the opposite sex!!

My writing madness increases: i'm going to change one of my fictions on fanfiction.net into a series...with chapters and all. Fun! (it's the moth one that I wrote for my enviro sci class). I dunno how I fit all this shit in. Wonder if I have sailing practice tomorrow, speaking of fitting shit in...eeeyikes.

Must remember: floor meeting at ten...yup yup. Maybe I'll take a short nap. Tho' I'd realllllly like to take my contacts out. (but can't). Dammmn. Fuuuuck. Whoops, no, not fuck. That's what got me into this situation in the FIRST place!

*covers head with pillow and runs away* AIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Thursday, November 06, 2003

From the vampire's den: AKA: DEATH BY FLOGGING!!!

Yay, I love it when people write to me....

On 04 Nov 2003 10:32:00 PST Tyler.L.Murphy@directory.reed.edu wrote:
> Hey Braine,
> Sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you after your wonderful
> letter the other day. Mom forwarded it to me, so I got it about a
> week ago. And to answer your most important question, my address:
>
> Tyler Murphy ...
> blah blah blah
blah blah blah blah
blah blah, blah blah blahhh
>
> So, exactly the same as last year. I keep the same mailbox all four
> years, which is really convenient.
> So, Halloween was good. I wasn't feeling too well the day of, but
> that night, a whole munch of my friends and I got together and carved
> pumpkins, listened to War of the Worlds (Orson Wells-style), and
> generally had a good time. Then the next day was Harvest Ball. They
> Might Be Giants played and a good time was had by all. I spent the
> afternoon with some friends doing ridiculously elaborate makeup.
> I've included a picture of myself (once again with a ridiculous case
> of red-eye... I must be some kind of demon... every picture...jeez)
> as the white rabbit. We went as a group Alice in Wonderland. We had
> an Alice, a Mad Hatter, a Cheshire Cat, a Queen of Hearts, and me.
> It was a good group, and we looked slightly freaky, in good Halloween
> fashion. I designed my makeup after Dia de los Muertos style (since
> dance itself was on Nov 1). It was fun. However, I also cut my
> nails into points, and it's making it interesting to type. I haven't
> gotten rid of them yet, as I am really liking having precision
> itching tools.
> So, have you shaved your head yet? And how is sailing, and your job,
> going? Don't run yourself too ragged. I know plenty about that. I
> actually had a slight episode last week when it seemed like there was
> way too much to get done. I three hours of sleep one night, and
> about five every other, so I was running on nothing. It was pretty
> miserable. And no, the workload as not let up. Still plenty to do.
> Hopefully by now your computer is off the blink and you can receive
> this. As for you and Rachelle road tripping up here, I am actually
> going to be in Portland during the summer, I'm not going home. I
> still haven't seen the Seattle house, and I won't until Christmas,
> which is fine by me, really.
> So, sorry this isn't in writing, but I will try to write you a real
> letter at some point here once I have a few seconds. So much to do.
> Hope all's well. Stay frosty.
> Later, Mouse

Hey MOUSIE!!!
Well, the workload has slowly improved, though I think I'm becoming a nocturnal vampire. (Did I mention that this insanity is garlic-noodle inspired? heh heh, whups!)
LOVE your halloween makeup, by the way. Very cool. I actually ended up having a random halloween experience: I was DD for a bunch of my really drunk homies (and roomie) across LA in the pouring rain...in my roomies GIANT land-boat van. Wheeee! We went to a party in east LA at her friend's house (bands, lots of people getting drunk...) and I drank LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of caffeine. Oh, and we can't forget the drunken munchy in'n'out stop, nor my famous quote: "Everyone got pee, got food, got happy??!?! GOOD!!" Hey, I was nervous, alright?
Hee hee, precision itching tools!! What a great idea. I had really nice nails for the weekend (gave myself a french manicure...) but I had to cut them off for sailing. (weep, weep!)
Spent last night up writing a paper outline, and rearranging kickass room. Evidently our room is very "homey" according to several floor sources. (IE: everyone who walks in to visit us). Huh. Oh, and we finally figured out how to hang our mirror on the wall. And my evil subwoofer works again. BAWAHAAAHA HA HAAAA! ^^
Mostly frozen here in sunny CA. Been pretty cold (for here) with the temp not going above 65. Nice fall weather. Lovely! Except that I'm having a small problem: I haven't done laundry to wash all my dirty sweaters. DOH! Oooh, finally have money, So I'll have to do it this weekend....Maybe I could take it home? hmmm, what a great thought.
It's been a very trying week, when all I want to do is go home. My great aunt is dying (lung cancer spread to her brain) and it makes life kind of ...fake. All the small shit isn't important, you know? And I really have no clue how to respond to when people ask, "How are you?" Should I lie and say "fine" or just be like, "like Crap"? So far, I mostly brush stuff off and say, "oh, ok." and then ask them how their week is going really fast. Only a few people know anyways. Juliana is picking me up tomorrow to go visit her this weekend.
On a happier note: what are you doing this next week? For Tuesday, I mean. I think I'm going rock climbing somewhere. My first time! I've never been before, and it's on my list of "things to do before I'm 25"!! Whohooo! And, of course, a moment of respectful silence for all the veterans out there. Maybe I'll call my grandpa and say hello.
OoooH! OoooH! Finally got contacts~ took me long enough. Am now seriously addicted to being able to see. Though I do have my ditsy days when i forget to put them in and go to class and squint anyways...silly of me. Will send you real mail very soon....Sorry, maybe this weekend. Or something. Bleh bleh. Ooh, my blog is slowly becoming more entertaining. (http://Xc3ll3n3me.blogspot.com) hee heee.
That's all for now....
Stay well, and keep the penguins away from your neck.
Oh, wait, I meant vampires.

Braine

Told You all I was crazy, right? *whistles innocently*
And nowwwwwwww......for some spanish and C++ code writing!! (very anticlimatic)
peace out!

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

This makes me sad:

ABYCsailor: hooker.

HWTEgrl: heeey

ABYCsailor
: i need to know when you
wanna come home friday


HWTEgrl: on friday? come home?

ABYCsailor
: yes

HWTEgrl: why? aunt shirley?

ABYCsailor
: so we can go visit aunt
shirley


ABYCsailor: yes

ABYCsailor: you have practice?

HWTEgrl: ohhhh. are you not going
to the regatta the next day?


HWTEgrl
: isn't it n/south?

ABYCsailor
: no....

ABYCsailor: stanford invite

HWTEgrl: ohhhhhhh.

ABYCsailor
: im not going cuz of aunt
shirley


HWTEgrl: riiight. forgot about that.
hang on a sec


ABYCsailor
: oh, and i got a ralph's club
card...so if u want one of the nifty
keychain ones they gave me, i can give
it to ya


HWTEgrl: ummm. oh, i have one of
those too.


ABYCsailor
: oh yea?

HWTEgrl: ok, tom said "don't even
bother wi/ practice"


ABYCsailor
: well, i have a SENIOR
benefits one


ABYCsailor: nyaaaaaaa

HWTEgrl: however, i dunno when ha
ha ha we're leaving for the regatta


ABYCsailor
: oh, you're going?

ABYCsailor: well, fuck me

HWTEgrl: i could not go

ABYCsailor
: you'd better tell me now

ABYCsailor: cuz i gotta plan major shit,
and im super stressed


HWTEgrl: what do you need to
know? when is ur practice?


ABYCsailor
: i need to know if you're
goin to the fuckin regatta this weekend!


ABYCsailor: jesus

HWTEgrl: fuck it.

HWTEgrl
: aunt shirley's more
important


ABYCsailor
: ok, then i will try and get
out of practice friday to come get you
that morning


HWTEgrl: okay. at like 1pm?

HWTEgrl
: ohhh, you don't have
class...arg!


ABYCsailor
: 1 pm?

HWTEgrl: ok, twelve?

ABYCsailor
: well, whenever

HWTEgrl: i'm calling mom...

ABYCsailor
: no

ABYCsailor: they're sleeping dumbass

HWTEgrl: oops. fuccck,

HWTEgrl
: forgot!

HWTEgrl
: i thought it was only nine
oclock


ABYCsailor
: pay attention stupid

ABYCsailor: :-P

HWTEgrl: arrrrrrrrrrrg

HWTEgrl
: me dumbass

HWTEgrl
: ok.

ABYCsailor
: send fuckin send me a
goddamn email and tell me WHAT TIME
TO GET YOU ON FRIDAY


ABYCsailor: and be ready

HWTEgrl: well, fuck it. A. shirley's
more important. TWELVE. allright. pick
me up @hillgard and strathmore


HWTEgrl
: (sorority row)

ABYCsailor
: by the AEPI house?

HWTEgrl: yeah. I'll hoof it over there
like no tomorrow


ABYCsailor
: k

HWTEgrl: should i bring anything to
stay overnite?


ABYCsailor
: DUH

HWTEgrl: i'm gonna skip el regatta.
ok.


HWTEgrl
: i'll do that

ABYCsailor
: ok

HWTEgrl: so, twelve at aephi

HWTEgrl
: cool

ABYCsailor
: cool


Very sad indeed. I love my great aunt. Why does she have to die so soon? I don't want her to! I still have the best memories of her---giving me pearl earrings for my birthday, and upon learning that I couldn't wear them, saying "Eh, wait till you pearce your ears then!!" Of learning to hula. Of visiting with them at Catalina on the beach, while they wore their gigantic hats. Of giving her a hug every time I saw her (so she wouldn't get offended if I forgot). Of her biting and amusing wit. The smell of her cigarettes---smoky and mysterious when you hugged her. Her jewelry, and incredibly bright colored clothes. Her olive skin. The way her eyes crinkled up at the corners and how she always called me "dearie".

I love you aunt Shirley.

Stick around until friday, okay? I want to see you again...before I never have the chance to again. Tell God you need a few more days.

Sunday, November 02, 2003

God, it's absolutely a beautiful day. Despite having to wake up at the ungodly hour of eight am, and discovering that I needed to be at the House by 845, and rushing to get ready....It was lovely. Pictures went okay, despite me looking like crap (in my opinion). did not get much in the way of breakfast today, but did have munchie stuff from presents lunch. Am far to lazy and cold (I think) to go to presents this year.

Had a lovely time walking back from the house in my litle green warmers--with my big red jacket on. Haa haa! Some guy stopped me and asked why everyone was wearing red and white dresses. Turns out he was a CS major, back in the seventies when they had to use punch cards and fortran. Wow. He said they called Bunche "the waffle" because of the shape of the windows.

Red sunset tonight. Crisp and cool out today--not too bad. I love autumn weather. It makes me want to dress all "back-easty".

The only bad part? Am starving, AND I have to work the fuckin' freeeeeezing late shift tonight. Why, oh why does my life suck so bad? ERRRRG. Note to self: kill sam one for hedrick. The fuckin prick gave me the same schedule as last week, which is TOTALLY inconvenient. Damn. Die, prick, DIE!! After din, I'm gonna get some sleep. Fuuuuck.

Laundry amoeba on my desk will not go away. Too lazy to put it away. Oh well. Oooh, need to change bed, get MONEY so I can wash my sheets....grrrrr. Fuckers need to PAY my paycheck. ARRRRG. ah well. Food, then sleep and I'll feel better, despite impending evil spanish paper tomorrow.

It can all kiss my ass. Ah, the view is lovely out my window. I think I'll go stare at it for a while as my stomache roils for food. Bye now!