You say that like I'm going to call YOU...

Is it wrong to be delighted that a relationship is over? I'd say no, especially when it really wasn't doing much for me, other than stressing me out.

And why should I be forced to comply with a gender role just so another person can help a "weak female" out? Fuck that--I've never been a weak, "oh, I can't do it, it's too hard" type of female. I can open my own doors, pay for my own drinks...I am not a fainting, missish wimp. Don't get me wrong, a little chivalry is great, but IF I get to a door first, I'll open it. If I need help, I'll ask for it. If I need money, I'll ASK for it. Or, I'll keep a tab with what I owe, so next time, I can handle the bill. All I ask for is a little reciprocity.

In fact, I don't NEED chivalry, but I can understand some guys want to do that stuff, and I'm ok with letting them some of the time. But don't whine to me about how I'm so independent, or "you darn independent people." WTF. Of course I am! I should be by this stage in my life---I'm a grad student, and someday a PHD student. Of course I SHOULD be independent by this point. I'm sorry, I'm not going to make myself co-dependent to maintain a relationship. When I tell you I'm low maintenance, I MEAN low maintenance. If I want more, I'LL CALL YOU. If not, take it as given that I am BUSY. BUSY. Or not interested.

And don't even get me started on the "Oh, I don't pay attention to politics--they don't have any affect on my life" attitude. BULLSHIT. Seriously, when that was told to me, I heard warning air raid sirens go off, and I kinda knew it just wasn't going to work out. Heck, I don't care if your politics are diametrically opposed to mine--just have an opinion and CARE a little. Not caring is as good as apathy---or sloth. And I'm a great proponent of sloth being the worst of all evils, in accordance with what Dante says in Il Commedia Divino.

Thank god, thank god, it's over without too much fuss. Hopefully boy will have gained some distance over the Christmas holiday, and will be professional at work. I can only hope, though I'm not particularly sanguine about it. Telling me that he'd like to kiss me there one time was not exactly ...comfortable...for me.

On another note, it was a nice walk to the block today in the rain. I wandered around afterward and got a couple leggings for 3 bucks each. Nice! I kept scoping out boots, but nothing really interesting. Most all of them were cheap or had zippers. I think the ones Jules found on Ebay are pretty darn sweet. No real good prices either. Guess the new year is not going to be any cheaper than last year. No super big discounts because everyone is trying to make SOME money.

I'm determined to do some major job searching this week---got to fill out graduate assistant paperwork for the library and other areas. I'm going to go lurk on the CSUF webpage and see what I can find.

I think I'll be updating this more often this year. It'll be a good outlet for me, I think. Should be fun!