Wednesday, October 29, 2003

HAHAAAAA! All Hill Halloween is the best EVER.
I wore my crazy geisha costume, and with the help of a little white makeup borrowed from Jamason, I was fuckin' SCARY!!! I put a black sheet in front of our door...and stood there without moving. Ha ha, so many kids SCREAMED when I moved....What fun! And I wasn't even trying to be scary. Wheeee! I so want to post pictures....What a total blast. The whole floor was really cool...Hope we can post pictures somewhere... Oh boy oh boy!

Kids are gone now...Must go study for midterm. My candy ran out pretty fast too. Roomie is mad at me because I wouldn't let her just sit and eat the candy... I took it away from her! She had eaten most of it anyway. Dunno Why she was so grouchy.

Heck, I was grouchy at her from last night when I was trying to sleep b4 work and she like totally had Sarah come over and they sat there TALKING. Arrrg. I sleep light, you know? so OF COURSE, I woke up. ARRG. Finally I got up and staggered to the study lounge, but the people in there were talking too....and so were all the people in the hall decorating for halloween. So, I gave up. I helped decorate for Halloween! And Our floor looked TOTALLY cool...

So now, must go. Study, pee, wash makeup off my face. WHOHOOO! Fun starts tomorrow! Yay for sisters who visit!

Monday, October 27, 2003

Siento muy triste. Hoy, recibi mi ensayo de clase con la nota “Tenemos que hablar. A las 12 hoy?” –Es terrible! Nunca tuve un profesor tan dificil que creia que no pudiera escribir. Me puse muy triste este, porque usualmente soy una buen escritora–en inglés.

Estoy triste. No puedo asistir una otra clase a este punto del quarter, y Ya tengo notas horribles en mi clase! No quiero recibir un “f” –Pero es imposible! El profesor es muy extricto dando sus grados. Quiero llorar.

Porque no puedo escribir?!! Creo es que no correctar/revisar cuando estoy escribiendo... solamente pongo todas mis ideas en el papel. O, quizas es porque creo en ingles— hasta este momento— y no le gusta mi estilo de escribir o expresar mis ideas? No entiendo— puedo hablar muy bien...pero, es verdad que escribir no es como hablar. Que debo hacer? Perdi mi cita con él hoy–quizas en miercoles puedo hablar con él.

Una tristeza grande—este es mi. Ah! Yo sé! Me voy a enviarle correo electronico.
También, tengo que hacer “research” para mi otro clase y hace un “outline” por la manana.

No me gusta a causa de no asisti a su clase por dos dias la semana anterior? No sé. Fui enferma.

Nunca me entiendo.

No estoy haciendo una buen semana. Soy triste, y estoy triste. Quiero dormir.

Pero— una de las unicas cosas buenas hoy? No tuvimos un meeting muy larga en m? sorority, y regresé muy temprano al dormitorio—a las siete y media!! Y m? roomie Angela es la MEJOR que cada otro del mundo. Siempre sabe que decir a mi a sentirme mejor después de un d?a horrible. Me encanta a ella! No quiero perdir ella proximo a?o...no quiero vivir en la casa de sorority!!!! Siiiiiiiiigh.

Necesito algun strongbad email a divertirme... Y después, dormir mucho!

Friday, October 24, 2003

Man, I'm so fucked. I totally bombed that PIC 10A assignment. Why? because I missed three days of class and one day of section. FUCK. Oh well, at least I made a solid effort. I looked at some other people's code, and it was so much clearer than the muck which was mine. Ohhh, i deserved an F!!! WAAAAAAAAH! =(

Fuck. I'm going back to my room and sleeping. AND, i'm going to get the notes for that week from someone to copy....damnnit! ARRRRRRG!

Brooke had lunch with me at the house today. The one bright spot in my day. At least I don't have to work today. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG!

Screw it, I'm out!

Okay, i'm annoyed at myself. I have now stabbed my right thumb TWICE on my drawing pen. OUCH. Not fun. Will I be permanently tattooed if there is ink in the cuts? Ikes.

Campus is so surreal today. It's so dead, and the sky is a funny color from all the fires around today. (Which I didn't know about until I went and took my picture for the Sorority composite at 1030 this morning and the photographer mentioned it.) The sun is shining RED in the sky. Weird.

Ok, got to work on my homework for my Pic 10A class....desperately! (It's due at five, and I haven't a fucking CLUE what I'm doing.)

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

If u siwtch the letetrs in a wrod...ecxept the lsat and frist letetrs, can a pesron sitll raed it? (Kiron is awesome)

Awww, Krystle is such a sweetie. Look what she wrote me! (I managed to finish all my spanish homework...now to study...)

nothinggolden: I love you
Elaine!!
;-):-*:-D


Auto response from HWTEgrl: i am SO
fucked.


HWTEgrl: thanx, homie!



Awww.... Now all I've got left is PIC 10 hw...tomorrow, I think. I'm tired!

Julzzz. is. funnnny.

ABYCsailor: so i haven;t heard from
phil yet


ABYCsailor: call him

HWTEgrl: allright.

HWTEgrl
: what should i say?

ABYCsailor
: whategver

ABYCsailor: here's his cell:

HWTEgrl: a'ighty

ABYCsailor
: (805) 895-1612

HWTEgrl: i got it ...calling...

HWTEgrl
: got a message. wel, hope
he calls me back...


ABYCsailor
: did u leave your #?

HWTEgrl: yup

HWTEgrl
: loud and clear

ABYCsailor
: oh hey

HWTEgrl: is what horsies eat. what/

ABYCsailor
: you gotta help me think of
a new analogy for my "made like a ball
and bounced" away messages


HWTEgrl: hmmm.

ABYCsailor
: yea...

ABYCsailor: hmmmm

HWTEgrl: i have horton hatches the
egg ones...


ABYCsailor
: oh yea?

ABYCsailor: bust it out

ABYCsailor: :-D

HWTEgrl: "toodle-oo!" said Maisie,
and off she flew!


HWTEgrl
: (horton hatches the egg,
Dr. Seuss)


ABYCsailor
: no no

ABYCsailor: i just want another
analogy


ABYCsailor: im gonna keep the same
"made like a..."


HWTEgrl: ohhhhh

HWTEgrl
: slightly dirty: made like a
spring and sprung!


ABYCsailor
: oooo

ABYCsailor: that's a good one

ABYCsailor: any more?

ABYCsailor: i was trying to think of one
in the shower today
:-P

HWTEgrl: made like a peanut.....

HWTEgrl
: and poo

HWTEgrl
: 'd

ABYCsailor
: naaah

ABYCsailor: oh no

ABYCsailor: i got it!!!

ABYCsailor: made like diarrhea and ran

ABYCsailor: :-D:-D:-D:-D

ABYCsailor: now THATs creative

HWTEgrl: WHOOO! that's a great
one!


ABYCsailor
: i think ill put that one

ABYCsailor: bwahahahahhahaa

HWTEgrl: yes, yes, do!

ABYCsailor
: its a classic

ABYCsailor: ok, backrub time

ABYCsailor: :-D

HWTEgrl: cy latz



Auto response from ABYCsailor
: Made
like diarrhea and ran.
:-D




HWTEgrl: awwww

ABYCsailor
: what

HWTEgrl: rats. ah well, what the hell,
bed for me!


ABYCsailor
: hey guess what

ABYCsailor: i will be at usc next thurs
for a sailing party


ABYCsailor: with their team

HWTEgrl: sweet!

ABYCsailor
: can i crash at your
place?
:-D

ABYCsailor: teehee

HWTEgrl: sure

ABYCsailor
: YES!!!

ABYCsailor: you wanna go?

ABYCsailor: it AT usc tho

HWTEgrl: sure! i just will wear
something skanky...


HWTEgrl
: whohoo!

ABYCsailor
: lol

ABYCsailor: i will tell harrison

HWTEgrl: cool. yay, usc party!

ABYCsailor
: you got me something
skanky to wear?


ABYCsailor: i hope?

HWTEgrl: uhhh, uhh. for when? this
weekend? i guess...


ABYCsailor
: for the party

ABYCsailor: next thurs

ABYCsailor: and SB

ABYCsailor: cant i borrow something of
yours? dont you have more skanky stuff
than me?


ABYCsailor: you know me...i dont have
any


HWTEgrl: i think so...it might be at
home tho


HWTEgrl
: no, wait, nevermind

HWTEgrl
: O:-)

ABYCsailor: ahahahha:-)

HWTEgrl: cool. hey, say hi to
harrison for me (dunno if he
remembers me...)


HWTEgrl
: oh, ps: how hot was it
there today?


ABYCsailor
: hotter n' SHIIIIT

HWTEgrl: same here. wasn't 106 like
yesterday tho. thank gawdallmighty
for sailing practice at the beach and
sailing lasers (got WET today,
whohoo!)


ABYCsailor
: yea, me too

ABYCsailor: we did team racing

HWTEgrl: what fun! we are still
getting new peepz up to par, so no
team racing yet, just lots of starts,
upwind legs with coach screaming,
etc


ABYCsailor
: fun stuff

ABYCsailor: i sailing with boyd

ABYCsailor: hes such a sweetie

ABYCsailor: and i took a chunk out of
my pinkie finger
:-P

HWTEgrl: ewwwwww! a chunk?!?!
WTF?!!


ABYCsailor
: yea

ABYCsailor: kinda nuts

HWTEgrl: whaddya mean, a chunk?
bleeding/ or just icky fell off


HWTEgrl
: like mj's nose...

ABYCsailor
: bleeding

ABYCsailor: i didn't even realize i had
done it


ABYCsailor: i just noticed there was
blood on the boat


ABYCsailor: so i turned to boyd, and i
was like, "i think im bleeding!"


ABYCsailor: and then i saw my finger

ABYCsailor: you know who jon boyd is?

HWTEgrl: err, describe?

ABYCsailor
: blonde hair

HWTEgrl: prolly met him, don't
remember..OHHH, right


ABYCsailor
: kind of big nose

ABYCsailor: yea

ABYCsailor: he's a cutie

ABYCsailor: so is jordan, but....

HWTEgrl: team-cest?

HWTEgrl
: :-D

ABYCsailor: nah

ABYCsailor: i dont care about that

ABYCsailor: i just dont think theyre
interested in me\


ABYCsailor: 'course you know me...im
oblivious


HWTEgrl: yup! "...duuuuuhhhhhh....."

HWTEgrl
: 8-)heh heh heh

ABYCsailor
: oooo yea

HWTEgrl: so what'd he do?

ABYCsailor
: he was like, "are you gonna
be ok?"


ABYCsailor: prolly cuz i had mentioned
earlier that im afraid of blood


ABYCsailor: (this is something i have
recently discovered)


HWTEgrl: aw, you're squeamish?

ABYCsailor
: very

ABYCsailor: sowwy:-\

HWTEgrl: pooo

ABYCsailor
: its so funny tho

ABYCsailor: boyd is Captain Obvious

ABYCsailor: lol

ABYCsailor: its hilarious

HWTEgrl: so u just bled all over for
the remainder of practice?


ABYCsailor
: pjrettymuch yyea

HWTEgrl: EEEEEEEEE *runs away*

HWTEgrl
: and with that horrible
thought in mind, i'm going to bed...


ABYCsailor
: hey i got it

ABYCsailor: i will wear my silk kimono
and be a geisha


ABYCsailor: you can do my hair:-)

ABYCsailor: or makeup

ABYCsailor: or whatever

HWTEgrl: hey, mf. it's gonna get
REALLY fuckedup. just wear your
cotton yukata


HWTEgrl
: then if beer spills...it won't
ruin it


ABYCsailor
: that's what i will prolly
wear


HWTEgrl: oh, ok good. smart! that's
what i'm wearing for all hill halloween
on wednesday (for the inner city
kids)


ABYCsailor
: good deal

ABYCsailor: i dont have a sash tho

HWTEgrl: eh. u'll have to scrounge
one up i guess...


ABYCsailor
: yea, i guess

ABYCsailor: ok, go to bed

HWTEgrl: a'ight. luv u, sleep now

ABYCsailor
: nite ntie

ABYCsailor: nite

HWTEgrl: no bedbuggies bite1

ABYCsailor
: lol

Booger Worship all ye HEATHENS!

HWTEgrl: hee hee roomie! ur fuckin
hilarious! ps...wanna take a break?


DeadlyDuckling L
: wat did i do this
time?


DeadlyDuckling L: not yet

DeadlyDuckling L: i am allll most done

HWTEgrl: your tiki tissue holder...

HWTEgrl
: ok, c'mon! you can do it!

DeadlyDuckling L
: :-D

DeadlyDuckling L: i didnt invent that, i
just want it


HWTEgrl: me too now...

DeadlyDuckling L
: u wanna get each
other that for christmas?


HWTEgrl: sure!

DeadlyDuckling L
: u r lame

HWTEgrl: then we could have TWO
matching ones to put in the room!


HWTEgrl
: it'd be tiki^2ed!

DeadlyDuckling L
: hahahhaahaha

HWTEgrl: :-D

DeadlyDuckling L: but then ppl would
assume we both have some sort of
uncureable cold


DeadlyDuckling L: and they would never
come in again :-(


HWTEgrl: i think theyd come in to
admire them...


DeadlyDuckling L
: worship

HWTEgrl: ah, right. good word,
worship


DeadlyDuckling L
: i worship things
coming out of the nose


HWTEgrl: my roomie worships
BOOGERS!

Walked to class with brooke today. Also, didn't want to go to sailing practice, but did. It was fun, since I sailed a laser and goofed off. I kicked peoples asses a couple times. It's been like 5-6 years since I was last on a laser, I think. Jr. High...it was. Whohooo! Go me. What a marvelous feeling. I'm getting more agressive on my starts. YARRR HARRR!

Late night mondays are a bitch. I got up early, went to breakfast and my eye appointment...and they DILATED my EYES. Ohmigod, I HATE that. Then, they stuck contacts in my eyes, and told me to come back after my 900am class for them to look at them. ARRRG.

And the drops that they gave me totally made me unable to read anything up close, so my notes from that class are pretty iffy (I could only see far away!). Hee hee hee! ---A change from usual, where I CAN'T see far away. Buuuut, the good part: I CAN SEE! (Since i sorta misplaced my glasses for a few days...and found them today in my sailing bag...)

The terrible part? They put anti-dilation shit in my eyes afterward, and it seriously fucked them up. (and BURNED). Owieeee.... So now I totally look like a stoner-- big bloodshot eyes. WAAAH! Still red today. Yuck. I will never do drugs if they do this shit to me! EWWWW.

Sent off my first cell-phone bill to mom over the weekend. Must make sure there is 40 bucks in checking on thursday when she cashes it. Got several emails back. Huzzah! (Now if only they'd understand that I want MAIL, and not email)...

Was so thrilled that I got my computer working. But, the sad part is that I'm an idiot: there was a floppy disk in the drive, and the computer was trying to boot off of it. ....YEeeeaah. After such a successful weekend of fixing Julie's computer...Wow, I so amaze myself. Pathetic! And my goddamn fuckin' E drive is STILL not working. No matter what I do. I'm about ready to pull an "Office space" on it's ass. GRRRRRR.

Ha! Checked my email today, and there were like two messages from my sorority, saying something like "so sorry all that shit happened, that we didn't know what the fuck we were doing, and don't get mad..." Ha ha ha! That's RICH, MOTHERFUCKERS, RICH!!

Was so thirsty, broke open a bottle of strawberry daquiri...with the label peeled off....ha ha, RA came by and didn't even suspect that it was alcohol...probably thought it was fruit juicy drink. Wheee! I am devious! Hiding things in plain sight.

I now have two cool pictures of tall ships on my wall. I got rid of the hilarity inducing giraffe porn...which is now hanging by my desk. Yesh! I don't have to work tonight, which makes me REALLY happy. No work, no work, la la la la NO WORK! Which means sleep, as soon as I do some of my homework....yeah, right.

Roomie and sarah are majorly stressed out. They have a midterm tomorrow....ikes. Oh, and it was Janice's birthday today (cool girl two doors down hall from us). She rocks. We jacked the entire cake in the dining hall and ate in the special private dining room...what fuN! (I still say smuggling the cake out of the dining hall was much more fun last year)...

Brooke gave me a car mug for my tea as I walk to class! Hooray for Grand Big/Big sis's! I'm so excited about it...Can't wait to use it tomorrow. After, of course, I wash it.

Fuck, contacts getting wiggy. I'd better take them out...Eeeew, my eyes are so gross. Oh, and panda rocks. Really, he does. He's hilarious. Yubba.

Snark, snark. Tag me...off to play "grab the fuckin contacts....slippery lil' bastards!"

Monday, October 20, 2003

Dude, this has got to be one of the worst Monday nights ever. I mean, I really thought that sorority meetings couldn't have gotten any worse, but honestly, WHAT THE FUCK!!? You'd think that with a relatively intelligent bunch of college women would actually know how to vote and pass a motion with the whole sorority by-laws thing. But NOooo, they had to take like fuckin TWO hours to try (notice i said try) to pass TWO simple amendments to the bylaws (which is like the sorority constitution)...Here they are:

"All candidates for the positions of President, Vice President, Treasurer, External, Recruitment Chair, Internal Social Chair, new member educator, house manager, scholarship chair and philanthropy chair must live in the chapter residence."

Oh, and the second one:

"The candidate for President shall have been active for at least one year and have served in another Executive office previously for at least one quarter."

C'mon people, you can agree on this shit. Just quit making stupid inane comments and freakin' VOTE on the motions that you second. Don't dick around and let more people make stupid comments when they shouldn't. Jeeezus, don't the prez and vp know how to RUN a voting meeting? I wanted to kill something. Repeatedly.

Oh, and the best part? I kept raising my hand to make a sensible movement...and waiting patiently with my hand up and my fuckin' mouth SHUT, and they'd never call on me, or they'd ignore me. I'm sorry, that pisses me off. So finally I just stood up and yelled at everyone to be quiet and that some people really needed to get out of there. Like me. I had to work tonight, you know? Some girls didn't really like it, and were like "it isn't necessary to yell" but that's total bullshit. When you don't respect me, and talk while I'm talking, I'm NOT GONNA RESPECT YOUR FUCKIN' ASS!!

So, I really didn't feel bad about yelling; I was probably the only person who had complete silence for what I wanted to say. HA! And I HOPE that I offended some people. Most of the dumbasses shouldn't have been opening their mouths anyhow...The seniors were right on most of the time, but really, all of us could have avoided inanely repeating shit over and over.

I finally peaced out with Sarah (who gave me a ride) at like eleven thirty. Then i had like an hour of delayed reaction rage/frustration. Roomie helped a lot with my desire to disembowel anyone resembling a member of my sorority. Hee hee, guys in the hall thought my anger was pretty funny. Yeah, just gimme a pencil...I'll shove, whups, I mean SHOW you how funny it was....

But then the thing that really brings the shit home to roost is the fact that I had to work the late shift at Hedrick too. Which I specifically asked NOT to do monday, since I have an eye appointment at 830 hours tomorrow morning, and don't really wanna be all bloodshot-eyes-girl. Damn. But I'm gonna be. So, here I am, using the super cool Calvin (hee hee, just like calvin and hobbes)'s computer. I brought my knitting, worked on it, brought my sketchbook, did nothing, and am avoiding doing anything remotely like homework or reading. Yeah.

Oh, had my spanish essay today. He finally found my folder with my draft copies in it and gave it back to me....and totally corrected the wrong copy of my paper. So, of course it was horrible (the exact copy, not my first revision) and he wrote that I should consider dropping the class since I was having such major problems writing...with like my feminine/masculine agreements and pronouns. Hello? Any first draft is gonna suck. The revisions are where the good emerges from the foolscap. DUH. But now I'm paranoid, so I'm gonna go revise it a final time (and get some help from Julie) and turn it in.

Tomorrow is my enviro class. I still need to come up with a synopsis for my paper, and to start getting together an outline. Which is a problem, since I have some sources, but most of my bookmarks were on my computer, and It is just NOT booting up at all. Damn, life sucks. Oh, and I totally haven't started my pic 10 homework.

Movies I must see: (calvin has agreed) Kill bill. Yup. Must see it. I want to see silly senseless violence and spurting blood!!! What an exciting thought. (And how fucked up is our society today, that we think that is amusing? Ah well, who cares!!?)

Music of the Moment: Linkin Park Reanimation, and Calvin's mix october 12, 2003.
Good times, good times. Calvin is a pretty cool guy. Evidently he has a webpage and a blog too: calvin.wtdesigns.org and his blog is just wtdesigns.org. sweet. gotta remember to go check those out sometime.

Took tylenol for headache after I came home from meeting. Roomie let me steal her bread and meat to make a sandwitch. I love my roomie, I really do.

Ha---HA! I'm almost done with my shift, just about 47 minutes left before we can start breaking down the station and heading out for the night. What a marvelous thought-sleep I mean. Sleep may be for the weak, but hey, I like being weak!! I really really do.

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Hurray for beer runs! We went and got wine coolers and baccardi o...and laundry detergent and rubbing alcohol and batteries....and cookies! Kiron and julie and anna and I stepped it down to the rite aide in westwood for some fun....no coke or v8 though...how sad!

Got up at eleven, went down to breakfast with mark, kiron, julie, anna and kc...what fun! Blackout starts soon. Must go get candles and stuff. Should be fun. Anywhoo, tired, and head hurts right now, so going to go lie down or something. =D

Lets all get blacked out for the blackout!!

Hmmm. upon talking to Kirona, and reflection upon Kevin, Julie and I have concluded (after a bottle of wine between the three of us) that kevin was perhaps less than a good date--he was so concerned with doing his homework, bleah! What poo!

Julie's birthday dinner was fun... yay for the corner bakery cafe! I had the roast beef sandwitch this time. Lauren and marissa and Jenn showed up. (not jenny woods...the other one!) Then, we got a ride back to the dorms (after a short stop at the baskin robbins) from tamar...all before nine o'clock! A very nice evening, except the wine is really starting to hit me now, and I'm sleepy to boot. And I was sleepy earlier. Dang. Stupid me. At least I rested today and didn't go to sailing practice!

Lot's of sleep in the forcast for tomorrow. Oh, and reading, and going to brunch for food. Lots of food. and now, more tomorrow, since I'm tired and it's really late. Night!

Friday, October 17, 2003

I haven't freakin' updated this thing in SO long. That's because I haven't had time to FART, let alone turn my computer on and type this up. Oh, and I've been working, sailing, studying, sleeping when I have the chance....the madness is unbelievable. I haven't even had time to work on my fanfictions or anything. Life has sucked. Oh, and did I mention that I got sick after sitting up until 5am up in icy cold hedrick hall? Ick! I'm DRIPPY. Oh, the HORROR! The HORROR!

Good news: had a great time at stoneyburke regatta in san fran. BEAUTIFUL weather: sunny, warm, balmy breezes. Driving up there was a bitch, and I got 2.25 hours of sleep friday night....(I was so exhausted, I kept twitching saturday until I finally got out on the water!) After dicking around saturdaynight, we decided to get two rooms at the holiday inn express in berkeley so peepz could walk to the sailing party and drink. I went to bed after gulping two pieces of pizza, and evidently no-one could wake me up to go to the party. So...I slept. Oh, and it sucked sunday, because my crew was SO fucked up, he was useless. Not sailing with him again if he's going to be like that. DAMN. If you're gonna get drunk, be smart, hmm? No DICKWADS ALLOWED!

Then, monday I had sorority, and rushed back to the dorms to work the night shift (I don't think I even needed to...oh well). All night tuesday on the night shift... date party on wednesday was great: i wore the skankyness with pride: garterbelt, black seamed thigh-high stockings, see thru shirt with red bra, black lacy panties, and skanky skirt. (actually, just my nice black skirt folded up). Once again, date drank on empty stomach so he threw up on the bus. He only had TWO freakin' beers. Fuck. So, now I have to pay the "puke fine" to the sorority social chair. DAMN. Goddamn it, I haven't even GOT fifty bucks yet! I am fucked. Next time, I'll go drunk by myself. At least Kevin was a pretty cool guy about going with Julie.

Shit, gotta go to Julie's birthday party. I'll write more later tonight: she's staying here, since the house is getting tented for termites. Oh, and the dorms are going to have a power outage for sunday, so I hope I can update all this shit....I really do. Latz peepz.

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

i AM soooo TIRED. And I do mean tired. Between sailing practice today and yesterday, and a regatta this weekend (as well as homework due friday) I don't know what to do! Oh, and I had a roomie meeting with the RA and training for my new job at HEDRICK hall. It lasted from 8-1030...

I was totally bummed yesterday when i found out I didn't get the Rieber job, but hey, the guy from Hedrick called yesterday night during sorority meeting and offered me a job, so whohoo! (actually he called while sarah, tamar and julie and i were driving around hanging posters for the new members...) What fun! Yay, sarah is going to adopt me, and tamar's adopting sarah! whooo! They make me so happy.

I have a job! I was so freakin' worried. Tomorrow I go get a copy of my ssn from the federal building at one. got to meet the dude who's driving us in dykstra 1.

Oh, AND I went to the going abroad fair yesterday. Found some REALLY cool stuff: being on a tall ship for a semester or quarter, or going to japan for a year, or costa rica.... Found stuff for juliana as well. I'll Have to send it to her. Fuck! I don't know her address. Dannnng.

Sailing team is great. Just exhausting. I spend all my free time during the day reading my computer textbook and doing spanish exercises. I'm really worried about the spanish. I want to do well. I NEED to improve and do well. Oh my GOD, let me do well!

so, now MUST go do calendar and Toilet talk....latz....when I have more sleep and energy than I do now...

Monday, October 06, 2003

Hmmm. Sounds like the Rieber front hall desk is pretty desperate for people to work the night shifts... I can deal with that, as long as they give me a job! My interview went pretty well, I think. Or, at least I hope. I ditched sailing practice today to do it. Bad bad little girl. AND, I didn't go to class so I could finish my spanish homework (god, i really hope my essay was ok...eeg!).

I had lunch at the house. That was nice. But there is one thing that really bothers me. People there don't listen to me. Granted, I don't really say the most intelligent things and should probably keep my mouth shut, but whenever I try to participate in a conversation, I get ignored or shut out. How lame is that? And then they'll ask someone about something else, and they just take the conversation to where only two people in a "clique" can talk to each other and understand each other. Why do I feel so left out? Better yet, why am I so offended that I'm being left out? At least Lea is ok with me again. But sometimes I really feel tentative around her-- I don't want to inadvertently insult her again. Honestly, I feel like I'm going through high school again; all the awkward angst and insecurity and trying to figure out where I fit in again. It makes me miss all my highschool friends. I hate that tentative thing. DANGIT.

At least my roomie is great. No, scratch that, fantastic. She doesn't put up with any bullshit, and we get along great. Oh, and I love my dorm homies. Kyle and Kevin and james and allen and corona and amir and jamason and judith and suyen and all the homies! Great times ahead. (bothering the roomie while she's trying to study with akhi's help is pretty fun too!) Gotta go actually study now...TA~!